Actually, masaya ang araw ko kahapon. :) ngayon lang ako inaaway ng mundo.
Anyway, happy thoughts muna...
Nung monday, I took on a new role. Hihi. Core na ako ng block namin. Finance head beybeh! Haha... To think I gave up being the BM Schol Head ng ACIL. Sinusundan talaga ako ng trabahong to... Haha. Sabi nga ng contact namin ni Kia sa Barangka: "Ganun talaga noh, if you really want something so bad, in the end, dun at dun ka talaga mapupunta..." Inspiring naman, made me hope. Anyway, hecticness for sure. Kasi parang officer ako ng 2 orgs. Isa pa, it's not as organized as ACIL. Medyo in trouble ngayon kaya ko siguro tinake. Haha. Nag-feeling na naman! Oh well. I'm looking forward to it!
Nung monday rin, I saw two of my highschool friends. I felt something different. It's both good and bad. Nevertheless, it was awkward but gave me a sense of renewed confidence. Diba, Nante? Basta yun. I'm lucky to be here and from now on, I won't waste my mom's money by disregarding my classes. I shall try so very hard. Hay. (It's hard not to cut!) Maybe, I shall be a beadle again. (Sige, patayin ko na ang sarili ko sa pagod...)
Yesterday was... hmmm... really nice. :) I tried to start my day at 9am. haha. But I ended up starting it at 2pm. I know delayed pero ngayon ko pa lang binabasa ang Memoirs of a Geisha. I don't buy books kasi, I just borrow. Hehe. Credits to my book supplier: Bea. :) Thank you! So, you know, pag tapos na siya at bored na ako saka lang ako nagbabasa. Anyway, di ko matantanan. Tapos ko na! So, I went to school to get my free dose of internet connection and Nante tried freaking me out through YM. Haha! Then I had an unexpexted/surpise visitor. And then, talked about politics and all other trivial things with my "kasambahay" as you called it. Haha!
But today! I woke up late. I looked for what I wanted to wear. Shyet. Nawawala ang army green pants ko! At paborito kong pants yun! Hinananp ko sa lahat. Wala. Inisip ko kung kelan ko ito huling ginamit.... Holy week ... outing sa Laguna. Pakshyet. after nun, di ko na yung ginamit. Wala na. Suot na siguro yun ng isang tao dun. Bwiset. To think, ilang months ko hinanap yung pants na yun. (Diba, Kia? and Bea?) proud na proud pa ko. Leche. Nagdecide ako. Bibilhin ko ulit yun. Now. Pero buti na lang, dineposit ko na lang ang pera ko sa banko. Hay. So, eto pa, magpapa-encash (?) ako ng check, hindi pala pwede dun kelangan sa branch mismo. Tingin sa check, BONI AVE MANDALUYONG! great. Punta ako ng school, ay, oo nga pala sinira ng isang lalaki yung diskette ko! ARRRRRRGGGHHH! Kasi kuha ng kuha di man lang magtanong! Bwiset! ngayon, magpapascan na naman ako ng picture.
Hay. Ayun lang. Ang haba. kasi ang tagal ko nang di nakapagsusulat eh.
Una sa lahat... Salamat Aligs at Jason sa panlilibre niyo sa akin nung last week... Waahahaahaha!!!! Salamat talaga kasi gusto kong mapanood yung reincarnation! Together forever... ehehehehe.....
Pangalawa, FRIENDS!!!! I NEED YOUR HELP!!!
Text me at 0922 806 6562. Cge na cge na. I know you want to... =)
Hindi pa ako makaisip ng mas magandang salita. At one point, I am beginning to be furious. At one point, jaded. Yet on another point, just beginning to be pissed. and still, at some point, I am very very nervous.
I think I am pissed and mad and it's turning into nothing -- jaded. I speak my mind but somehow, this time around, I prefer not to talk to you because I know you wouldn't truthfully listen, anyway. So why bother when you don't? You think, everything's gonna be okay if you try to look okay and approach me in a sunny mood. No. Well, now, I dont care that much anymore.
It might be wrong to make assumptions but I guess, it's just my instinct. I don't like it when people try to tinker with what I think is mine or at least, I claimed or used first. I can be territorial, especially with the people that I am not close to. I am also a very detailed person and these details that may seem nothing to others is maybe something big for me.
Am I angry? I do not know.
Because, I feel a lot of things right now. A mixture of emotions but nevertheless, i know what those are.
I am also very very nervous because something's changing and it's hard for me to deal with it.
But I am also happy. Very much on one big aspect of my life. =)
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miggy. michee*. michellette. different names, different facades. one whole complicated individual underneath the blanket of stars hoping that one day i could hold one.
:: Michelle Loves ::the stars. the wide sky. love itself. the journey. and maybe the destination.
:: Random Thoughts ::chocolates. sweets. hugs. kisses. smiles. laughter. tears. painful knowledge. truth. honesty. cookies. love. alone. friends.
:: Stars falling, An angel hoping ::staring at the wide sky. walking underneath the stars. enduring the journey -- loving it, hating it, not sure of the destination. i continue to walk, covering ground while the stars fall, and i continue to hope...