I was already feeling sick the whole day of Friday. My eyes were already starting to feel hot and I thought I was coming down with a cold. I continued my day, even went to area. The area wasn't that good. Trying to figure out how to teach Mass proper to kids that aren't even Catholics. Go figure.
Night. There it was, my body gave up on me.
I had an anemic fatigue-the insides of my eyes were turning really pale and so did my lips. That's when I knew that this was not just my body feeling tired. This was the first time it happened that I didn't have my period. I always do, during periods but now I don't have a period. I figured, ok, this SO wrong. I was sitting in front of the television, and the world was literally spinning. I decided to lie down for five minutes and sleep but as I closed my eyes, the spinning worsened. My head was aching and nahihilo na ko plus my muscles felt so weak. I didn't know what to do. They gave me Biogesic but nothing happened. I went down and got myself two bottles of Gatorade (this is what I do when I have my period). I thought, "what the hell... Let's see if this one would work". But then, I thought of a better solution, daan ko na lang sa psychology-"ok ako.", I kept telling myself. But I did buy those Gatorades, drank them straight. Ok, maybe TWO was TOO much. I wanted to barf. I had to bring it down. Solusyon-yosi. I hate being sick. Hindi ako sanay na ako yung inaalagaan, that's why I refused when everyone insisted on buying Gatorades for me. (But I really DO APPRECIATE the concern, people. It's nice knowing that there are people like you guys. Thanks for taking care of me.)Ok, I don't know which one worked, the Gatorade or the psychology tactic but was I glad that my eyes were having its color back. Bumabalik na yung dugo ko.
I think I'm feeling better now. I mean, I CANNOT get sick. I have too much to do and their dealines are on Monday and Tuesday. That's why I'm here. The morning isn't really bright. No evidence of the sun. It is really cold, especially in this room. I need to do my papers. Ang dami. Ang lamig. Where could my human jacket be?
My mom, by the way, texted me. "K. Luv u." Bati na kami. Yey.
This day is going to be a LONG one. I have TBS at 1-3, recollection at 4-7, and do an interview at 10.
I just looked out the door-it's already raining. I love watching the rain. It soothes and it calms. It's so melancholy-just as my soul is, I guess. I just read the lj of my fave cousin/bestfriend. Seems like everybody's looking for acceptance...
Cold. Alone. And my brain's practically dead.
miggy. michee*. michellette. different names, different facades. one whole complicated individual underneath the blanket of stars hoping that one day i could hold one.
:: Michelle Loves ::the stars. the wide sky. love itself. the journey. and maybe the destination.
:: Random Thoughts ::chocolates. sweets. hugs. kisses. smiles. laughter. tears. painful knowledge. truth. honesty. cookies. love. alone. friends.
:: Stars falling, An angel hoping ::staring at the wide sky. walking underneath the stars. enduring the journey -- loving it, hating it, not sure of the destination. i continue to walk, covering ground while the stars fall, and i continue to hope...
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